This will be the first Father's Day without the best man I have ever known. The day is going to be rough. I think probably harder than his funeral. He was adored by many. Especially his family. He was a simple man with a limited vocabulary...mostly F-bombs :-) but his heart was so genuine and large that no one could compare. I miss dad every day. I ALWAYS think of my mom actually. How she is especially since she still lives in the same house she shared with him for 52 years. memories...guilt...loneliness. But during this holiday, I am actually thinking of myself and my sisters. Yes, it is very hard for my mom, but this Sunday is going to be an emptiness that I have never felt in my life.
Ok ok..this is the HAPPINESS blog...so wipe away your tears and think of this. I am simply taking a lawn chair, a CD player and a 6 pack of Amstel Light. You know damn well Danielle is plopping her ass on his grave and having her own little BBQ for the man who sacrificed and taught her so much. We will be listening to Johnny Cash while I pour 1 beer on his newly planted sod (probably will kill it and Dawn will be pissed off) and the other beers are for me and whoever else decides to stop by. Dad's grave site usually has a lot of visitors. So I better bring a cooler and snacks now that I am thinking about it. I also wanted to show him my gift I got him.....
I will place his card on his grave...cause yes, dead Donald can read, and then I will show him my new tattoo. My dad always said to me, 'Danielle, there is always an alpha and an omega. A beginning and an end!" Well dad, your end came too soon. I got my version of an alpha and an omega tattooed on me to remind myself you are always with me and a part of you is still on this earth. This by far is my most memorable and favorite tattoo!
Miss you tons dad... "God Damn It Kay!"
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