Day - 20 and 21 Spread the Joy!

Day 20 and Day 21- HAPPY - Pharrell Williams

Despite what some people might think of me, I am not a bitch, nor do I think I am harsh or even standoffish.  I do consider myself a strong, independent, confident person who is completely opposite of a needy, selfish or dependent person.  One thing that true friends know about me is that I am very generous and have a huge heart.  That heart is very sensitive though and has been used a lot in the last couple of years.  Despite that, my first intuition if I am best friends with you, or just acquaintances is to make sure you are comfortable (if I am throwing a get together) and to make sure that person is happy.  You see, for me, my happiness ALWAYS gets trumped by someone else's happiness and it isn't because of spite or being on purpose.  I truly am happy when I see others happy.  I do not necessarily have to make that person happy, but knowing that they are happy, even for that moment makes me happy as well.  In my mind, my needs and happiness comes second to others.  I have always lived my life like that, and probably always will.  

So why the ramble and defensive blog you say?  Well, yesterday Day 20 and today Day 21 exactly fits this subject.  Today, I found out that two of my good friends are having a great year.  Between getting married, graduating their master's program, standing up for themselves and finding a true partner and labeling the relationship, not only put gigantic smiles on both their faces, it truly made me extremely happy.  I sincerely was happy today knowing that they were happy.  It made me forget life's little annoyances, debts or work.  But more importantly, it made me focus on this blog and the root definition of pure happiness.  It isn't something that directly effected me, it was something that made my friends happy.  And for that I am grateful to have been a part of their excitement and joy. 
I feel part of this blog not only helps me express things that make me happy, I am hoping that it might give some small insight of me to others.  It is hard having a strong personality, but hopefully others can possibly see the true me and not be so judgmental.  Everyone though is entitled to their own opinion and life for me is too short making sure people around like me, because in all honesty, I like myself and that is all that matters. (FYI, this blog isn't for me to rant on so no need to ask what events lead up to me defending my personality...too boring) 

Also...as a side note....I will be SO HAPPY when they stop playing John Legend "All of Me"  They even turned it into a dance mix.  Come on!  Enough already!